At the age of 17 I was convinced I had met my soul mate. He was the absolute love of my life and someone I will cherish and care for forever. We grew together, but sadly in different directions. After 4 years the love we once had fizzled out.
After him, to fill the void and loneliness I was feeling, I allowed someone else into my life. I traded one for another because I was so scared to be alone. Needless to say this one ended too. And once again I had the same fear…
However this time I saw being single in a different light. I saw it as a positive experience.
This is the longest I have been single for since I was 17 years old. It has been over a year now of getting to truly know myself. I have learnt so much and I have never felt so free and somewhat powerful. I have realised that being alone doesn’t mean you are lonely, in fact it means quite the opposite. It gives me the freedom to spend time with a whole variety of people, to travel when and to wherever I want. It allows me to grow and be independent. And most importantly it has enabled me to fall back in love with myself.
Being alone is better than being surrounded by people who do not value you as the beautiful soul that you are.
I have made a promise to myself to never depend on another person. To truly love and find happiness from within before I allow anyone else into my life. To not settle for anyone who doesn’t deserve my love. I feel stronger then I ever have done, and there is not a day that goes by where I feel I need someone else to complete me.
I am not afraid to walk alone. For I would rather be alone then with the wrong person.